Digging In The Dirt
by Ivan Jaigirdar
. . . Shocked, jolted and catapulted into mid air, my mother, with me in her arms, fell to the ground. A faulty electrical wire in the fan of our house in Bangladesh had sent a bolt of current through both of us. Years later I finally understand my fear of electricity. Putting bread in a toaster is less of an ordeal. . . These memories return in surges of energy. Not yet a ‘flood of images’ from my genealogical past. Although I am hopeful, I am constantly blocked by numbing currents of negative electromagnetic fields around my body. These ionic walls plague and thwart my efforts at digging in the dirt Sweaty forearms, glazed eyes, a limp tongue, . . . and to cap it all, a soul disturbed by pleasant memories of malls, the tube, and burgers. . . Lux Deprivation [1], says my psychic healer. A deep breath . . .
Lack of ambiguity limits imagination
Lack of ambiguity limits imagination
lack of ambiguity limits imagination
Ah, that Zen mantra always helps. . . .
As opposed to Zen--Realism, history, language, ideology, and the framing of facts have to do with dominant or master cultural hierarchical constructions of power, which both define and confine
. . . Machine gun shots pounded the gates of our house. In a burst of anger, my father rushed to the door. Friends
Note #1:
a. Lux-Deprivation: Lack of lux; no lux. See lux.
b. Lux: Muzak on the macro level. Not just functional music but TV images, films, art, magazines, food--all in their different ways designed to have a definite effect on people in a store, work place or home. Lux affects our moods and attitudes in a ‘positive’ way. Whether as background or foreground these kinds of created environments take us away from who we are at present. It takes us into an artificially-created space, enclosed and isolated from the outside world. Lux creates a nostalgic space that speaks of another time. It is not our own experience. Lux orders our emotions, interprets our culture, defines our art works and lives our lives.
For strategies to counter lux-dependency, go to note #2. ‘Our-story’. (Optional)
Note #2 (Optional):
Our-story: Ambiguity in relation to concepts of truth, reality, art, social
science and science are part of a Non-Western tradition. Chinese, East Indian,
Japanese, African and indigenous cultures, such as the Native Americans and
the Aborigines, share a common thread of not limiting, narrowing, controlling,
segmenting or defining reality. Nature is always in flux; or, shifting like
the river. For these cultures, the notion of time is not, as in the Western
or European tradition, linear (ie: birth to death), but mythic and circular.
Past, present and future are amorphous. The spatial, temporal, genealogical,
and generational time of lived experience merges and re-circulate in our memory.
This notion of shifting or merging time and reality is also historically reflected
in the Non-Western approach to Art. That is to say, unlike Western classical
notions of art, there is no division of art into clearly defined realms; or,
a submission of one art form over another – image over word or word over
image. Instead, the arts merge into each other. For example, in Chinese calligraphy
or African hieroglyphics there is no separation of the written word to visual
arts and expression. The scripts form artistic composition, and, in the case
of hieroglyphics, they are also part of architectural structure. Similarly,
in Japanese haiku theatre there is also a mixing of art, music, and literature
to give a layered sense of reality. (Continued; see note #3)
For Morrison, writing is not only thinking and discovery and selection and order and meaning, it is also awe and reverence and mystery and magic. This means exploring the ambiguities in life by not limiting writing into categories of fiction, fact, history, memory, or myth, but by weaving in and out of them. As she says, "Truth is stranger than fiction."
. . . Leaving everything behind, we drove to the airport. My father could not go with us. He dared not even come to the airport to see us off. We left for Czechoslovakia with my French mother and our French passports. . .
Note #3 (Optional):
Cont from #2.: The Eastern tradition of merging the arts makes clear the distinction between reality and the representation of it. That is to say, unlike the Western classical styles that try to mimic a fixed reality without making the viewer aware of its artifice, Eastern art makes no attempt at either a defined reality or truth but makes the viewer aware of its form as representation. For example, in Japanese haiku theatre, masks are worn and the voice is separated from the body of the actors for the purposes of making clear that it is not reality but a staged scene. The haiku mask (like the African mask) or image is not the object of reality but an image or a representation of it. Moreover, there is no effort to glue the scene together or to make it a seamless space. It is a layered representation of reality--not reality itself. This approach to representation does not reduce meaning to a straight signifier or a one-dimensional view, but offers the viewer many subtle perspectives or representations of life. (Continued; see note #4)
This merging of styles helps Morrison get to the censored emotional truths of African-American slaves and to their omitted histories. Morrison's approach consists of retrieving through memory or "literary archaeology," "the inner feelings, emotions, and lives of African-American slaves who had written autobiographical accounts about slavery that were emotionally neutral so as not to be viewed as biased. Morrison says, "Quiet avoidance of emotional display was their job. My job becomes how to rip that veil drawn over proceedings too terrible to relate."
Note #4
His-Story (History): On the other hand, the European tradition (as I have already
alluded to), since the Middle Ages, is to define, codify, separate, simplify
and narrow reality. The classical approach to reality is to see it as a fixed
or a set state. In fact, unlike the Eastern tradition, Western artistic concepts
are aimed at copying, imitating or capturing nature--the river, and the ‘reality
out there’. In science, for example, nature was seen as mechanistic, ordered
and dead –- with reducible or immutable laws or truths. Science, literature,
poetry, and art were specialized to attain their particular part of the truth.
Although Classical Western approaches to specialize, of attempting to represent
and codify reality have brought a closer or narrower understanding of some ‘parts’
of nature. It has lost the picture of the whole. Only now, in the post-modern
era, are Western notions of science and artistic expression broadening out imaginatively--seeing
nature as Eastern and Indigenous populations always have--as living, spontaneous,
chaotic, shifting, amorphous and indefinable. (Continued; see note #5. –
Hybrid Stories; Optional)
Note: #5. (Optional).
Hybrid stories: In response to this tradition of fixed, limited reality, Modern/Post Modern Western theorists, artists and scientists, influenced by the East, countered their classical History and expanded notions of reality. For example, in the arts, Margritte’s phrase “Ceci n’est pas une pipe”, renders the two principals of classical painting (1. resemblance or plastic representation or reality, and 2. the subordination of one art from to another) mute. The notion, that -- "this is not a pipe"--but is a representation of a pipe undermines, clarifies and exposes the artifice of plastic representation. Furthermore, by mixing word and image, Magritte (like Klee and Kandinsky) subverts and ruptures the notion of total separation and subordination of image to word, and, of linguistic ordering. This change opens up the possibilities for new relations of words and images. Similarly, in the field of music, John Cage, breaks from the nineteenth century tradition of excluding, narrowing and defining dominant music from other tonal, sound and noise possibilities. By using stray or accidental sound as music, he breaks the definition of music itself. In literature, classical narrative is also opened up to post modernist concepts by merging mediums of poetry, fiction, history and myth. This technique of mixing prose, known also as minor literature, is not only a way to layer reality but also to subvert dominant hierarchical and ideological codes of language. Additionally, this layered reality, is a means through which marginal groups can regain their own histories and create their own language. (Another technique used is to interrupt or subvert the linear and manipulative time flow of classical narratives). (Continued; see note #6: Hybrid-Film-stories; Optional.)
. . . Tutool, my friend/brother, his sister, and his pregnant mother crossed a calm, muddy river in a small boat. As they approached the other side, a Pakistani soldier shot all of them. . . . I jolt away from these images. . . .the French dentist's drill slips in my mouth. . . . In France, the French kids spit on Algerian kids. . . . . . . In England,. . . .it's the ‘Paki's’ that get it. . .
"Literary archaeology," or a "flooding" of memory, in terms of what the remains of memories imply, is of gravest importance for Morrison. For it is a way at getting to the omitted and censored truths of Our Stories as opposed to His Story, both on a personal, emotional level and on a social one.
Note #6
Hybrid-Film-stories (Optional): Just as the movements in literature, music
and art, alternative and independent films also benefit from post-modernist
ideas. For example, in Andrei Tarkovsky’s film The Mirror, we see a mixing
of poetry, word and image in a mythic and non-linear time format. Tarkovsky,
did not want to limit reality but wanted to merge and fill images with all forms
of time and subjective feelings, As he says in Sculpting in Time: “In
a word, the image is not a certain meaning expressed by the director, but an
entire world reflected in a drop of water.”
This hybridization of styles condemns all forms but is hardest on the documentary
format, which considers itself objective. As Trinh T. Minh-Ha says in From a
Hybrid Place: “Every representation of truth in the depiction of reality
is a question of degrees of fictitiousness. The more one tries to clarify the
line dividing the two, the deeper one gets entangled in the artifice of boundaries.
. . . Although the English words come out of my mouth, I am detached from them. I don't really feel the words. Writing brings back memories, which have a language of their own. . . . It is hard to stare at the Western mask I have adopted. My Eastern mask is frozen in the time of my youth. It is frozen, as are the dead. . .
. . . They framed India as spiritual but uncivilized. They taught us to believe in and idealize everything British, including their racism for us. They also taught us to hate each other and aim for race and religious purity. Divide and control. We define you as opposed to you define yourself. They were the signifier and we the signified object, other, subduing even the diversity of voices, emotions, and memories within us. They have left but the structure of dominance remains. We are their colonial surrogates. . .
Additionally by layering reality and not separating it as conventional approach, you subvert the dominant imposition of history, ideology, or truth. Reconstructing and recollecting the personal and social realities of marginalized groups is as Morrison describes, an exercise critical "for any person who is black or belongs to any marginalized category, for, historically, we were seldom invited to participate in the discourse even when we were its topic."*
. . . retrieve, recreate our own identity regain and recover memory, and the inner personal and social lost pieces of our cultural identity: voices, visions, hearings, bodies, hearts, souls and . . . .imaginings. . . away from the electrical numbing of lux . . .
. . . Foucault says, “ There’s a battle for and around history going on at this very moment. The intention is to program, to stifle what I’ve called ‘popular memory’ and also to propose and impose on people a framework in which to interpret the present.”
. . . How many deaths have resulted from their framing?
I fear digging further in the dirt . . . there's too
much blood, too many bones, and too many bodies. . .
. . . Ami ehta liksi, amar bhai ebong bondhu, Tutool er jonno. [I wrote this for my friend and brother, Tutool.]
* 1 to 3 million Bengalis were 'purified' by Pakistanis in 1971
End Notes (Optional)
The old pond was still
A frog jumped in the water
And a splash was heard
- Basho
"Haiku cultivates its images in such a way that they mean nothing beyond themselves, and at the same time express so much that it is not possible to catch their meaning. The more closely the image corresponds to its own function, the more impossible it is to constrict it within a clear intellectual formula. The reader of haiku has to be absorbed into it as into nature, to plunge in, lose oneself in its depth, as in the cosmos where there is no bottom and no top."
- Andrei Tarkovky
"All water has a perfect memory and is forever trying to get back to where it was. Writers are like that, remembering where we were, what valley we ran through, what the banks were like, the light that was there and the route back to the original place. It is emotional memory. And a rush of imagination is our 'Flooding.' Like water, I remember where I was before I was straightened out".
- Toni Morrison
Bibliography:
Inventing the Truth, William Zinsser, Ed.; "The Site of Memory," Toni Morrison (New York, Houghton Mifflin Co., 1995) p. 301, 302, 306.
Sculpting in Time, Andre Tarkovsky. (New York: Alfred A. Knopf. 1987) p. 106, 108.
From a Hybrid Place, Trinh T Minh-ha (New York: Routledge, 1989) p. 52.
Power/knowledge: Selected Interviews and Other Writings 1972-1977, Michel Foucault (New York: Pantheon Books, 1980) p. 35